I do not dream

I do not dream when you are here
But that is more than I can ask

Because in my dreams, my broken self
Is a long and broken task

But like myself and but myself
I can only have a plea

I can only wish and wish for one
Someone else…
---but me

I can dream that I can die
I can dream that I might live

I can wish for both
And pray for none

And accept what life might give

To a fact that breath will still--
prove what it might find

And to know that I might never know
What is really in my mind

To love that might not find it’s place
And a love that might not give

I can find within myself ;
the only way that I might live

To that I can only find a way
to end my own despair

And in that I can only breathe what breath
could be in the air

I only wish but this.. that love and life can find

Something within what might be, and that with this, maybe could be mine.